Monday, September 14, 2009

"Dingy" Or Spiritual

I'm being me again!

Last night, after church, I went outside before my husband and stood beside the car waiting for him. It was rather cool so I hoped he would come soon. I waited . . . and waited . . . and waited. I was becoming a little impatient when I looked at the car and realized it was MY car and not his. I had driven us to church! I had stood in the cold for nothing! I had to laugh at myself. Hey, since stuff like this happens to me so often, it's the best thing to do. Besides, crying makes your eyes puffy and my eyes are puffy enough!

Once I recognized it was my car, I started rummaging around in my purse for the keys. No keys. I went back inside and my husband and I retraced my steps. Some time later we finally found the keys.

I wonder what it would be like to simply get in your car and go home from church. I wonder what it would be like to live without constant catastrophes, no trauma, no drama. That kind of life is one I only dream of! I seem to go from one traumatic incident to another. I wish I had it more "all together." At my age, I've about decided it's not going to happen so I'll have to live with who I am.

I may not be able to change my "dinginess" but there are some things I CAN change, some things I SHOULD change. I can change how much I allow God to change me into the person of his choosing. I should allow him freedom to direct my life daily. If I do that, I may still be "dingy" but I will definitely be more godly. If I had a choice of God changing my "dinginess" or changing me spiritually, I would choose the latter!

Dinginess may not change but hoping I am changing spiritually, Gloria

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